I received some bad news recently....my father passed away suddenly over the weekend! I experienced a series of emotions after hearing the news. my emotion levels ranged from shock, anger and finally pain. When I was a child, I worshipped the ground he walked on. In my eyes....my daddy was the best daddy in the world! When I was eight years old, my mom and dad divorced. I remember that I wasn't sure what the word "divorce" meant and I still thought everything would be alright. Well it wasn't, I didn't see or hear from my dad until I was adult with my own children!
My hurt turned into anger and sometimes hate for him. How could he do this to me? Did he ever care about me or my brothers?
I asked him those questions a few years ago and he broke down and cried. Once again I forgave him. I told him that all was forgiven, we can't "go back" we can only move forward. My dad made so many teary promises and disappeared from our lives again. I never heard another word from him or about him until this past weekend. Now he's gone forever! I have had a heavy weight on my shoulders the past few days. I made up my mind that I will do the right thing and attend my dads funeral with my brothers and family. I don't know why some people hurt the ones they love, life can be very difficult to understand at times. I have forgiven my father and may he rest in peace knowing that all is forgiven.
*When we return from West Virginia and I get a lot of "stuff" sorted out, I will return to commenting on all the beautiful cards and projects again. I just have to "get my self together"! I keep telling myself that things will get better soon and in my heart I know they will:)